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Hello

2010-03-24T04:33:00.001-07:00

I MISS THIS BLOG ! WAHAHAHAHAH!

onsugar.

2009-11-21T22:17:00.000-08:00

MOVED TO ONSUGAR.

FOLLOW/LINK ME PLEASE (:

www.fxckmecauseimerawr.onsugar.com

thankies.

p/s. still will be using blogger.

Shee. ♥

2009-11-17T06:39:00.000-08:00

baby , i hope you're doing okay
I'm sorry to hear the story you told me.
but be strong please. he is one selfish guy
he doesn't know what his missing.
I've been thro this before. really
seeing you sad/cry hurts me enough
its cliche, i know. but, i want you to smile.
you know im always here for you shee.
i am. im here to support you from the back.
im ur listening ear,ur shoulder to lean on.
i'll wipe away you tears when you cry.
i'll be the close friend you ever had.
i want to make you laugh i want to make you smile
even tho we are not that close but i want to.
cause i love you (: you know im always here.
be strong kay babygirl?

eye em why.

2009-11-17T01:02:00.001-08:00

Like finally Y online today
i was so the fucking happy yknow
Y- " Hey , era. sorry i never wish you. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY & i miss you . "
okay enough with the crap. but really , im very happy (:
weeeee. okay . im bored at home my brother everyday go out siah
then me? mum keeps nagging. what to do, i also have been going out everyday.
but i'll be a goodgirl and stay at home for the week.

and yeah , i have not been blogging normally.
so yeah. on saturday was very fun and seriously
2012 is not a bad show. actually aly was suppose to tag along with us
but she decided to go with her friends. then left me,vic and GG.
we were suppose to catch a movie . but instead we go to death by brownies.
we got in for free btw. HEHEHEHE. shhh.
it was a fun night. and finally met enna (:
happy sialsssss. then took pictures and stuff.
watch beyond suicidal and kelvin's band set.
fucking steam siah. hahaha. after that we went to cineleisure
catch blindfold hero's set. but before thier set. there's this one band
the last song they played was bob the builder. and everyone sang along xD
we were all so hyper. somemore one big group siah go watch blindfoldhero set
met new friends. and i think i saw khai,haziq ah. but im not sure cause my eyes were kinda dry
i think they with thier girlfriends , so happy for them (: LAST LONG OKAY !
then around 9.30 i went to meet bro and some of my friends at century square.
catch 2012 till 1.00am . then me and bro took cab home.
so thats how i spend my day.
okay bye.

WHAO D:

2009-11-16T20:16:00.000-08:00

sis , just finish with her zine
and omg i so want to read it please.
& do you notice something?
Goregirl's on the front page.
GG, you'll one day become famous !
in her school lah. HAHAHA.
okay , i so want to read it please-.-"

old times ; good times

2009-11-13T17:20:00.001-08:00

TIME TIME SCENEKID :P

hahahah 2007 photos.

kbye.

Paranormal Activity = SUCK DICK .

2009-11-13T15:25:00.000-08:00

it sucked, tottally.

damn boring siah, till i want to fall asleep.

watch at irwan's ipod. the last part was shocking ah :O

but still , merepek to the core.

we watched at espl library since it was raining.

around 5+ met GG. then head off to peni for awhile

then to bugis. then to tampines. met dad,bro,stepmum

and GG came along :D wanted to watch 2012 .

but tickets like soldout for the time slot.

then went to get my headphone.

lawaaa lawaaa lawaaaa.

black/pink (: limited edition doh.

HAHAHA. okay umm , then eat at pizza hut.

fuck so fucking full -.-" and gg keep laughing for no reason.

HAHAH. okay after dinner. seperated with GG/dad&stepmum.

went home with bro. chibye whole day raining __.

fucking cold. k lah, i think that is all (:

oh and i had fun spending the day with irwan , eventho its for awhile (:

Class BBQ

2009-11-09T20:52:00.000-08:00

the fuck-some bbq ever.
will upload pictures from aishah's camera.
soon. so stay tune (:

so i've heard.

2009-11-07T21:15:00.000-08:00

Went To Ajie's Blog. and what do i fucking see? THIS.

PARANORMAL FUCKING ACTIVITY

i went to this link , when i was reading his post.

http://www.isparanormalactivityatruestory.com/

so i've heard. " based on a true story."

but what the hell? who am i suppose to believe?

some of my friends said " it is based on a true story."

some of them have no idea. but liked the movie.

even i do not have a chance to watch it yet.

im rether dissapointed like ajie

well, yet pissed. but im still going to watch the fucking movie no matter what.

before i get all crancky imma go drink my ice milo.

BYE!

Penat sials.

2009-11-07T20:51:00.000-08:00

yesterday met the 2 bozzo's [ Hamka & Firdaus ]
then we took bus 3 to nazura's house to get cash ^-^
then in the bus ah , hamka was like

Hamka-"Eh kau ton?"
Me-"Tak , Asal?"
Hamka-"ton ah , we can entertain you." * pulls his collar shirt.
Me-"CHIBYE !" *laughs so loud till everyone looks at me.

HAHA. then reach nazura's house get cash then chaoz to meet maneck
and get cash , macam tai long siah. HAHA.
k abeh jumpe maneck and fidaiiy skali.
then we head to buy all the BBQ stuff .
so fucking penat lah kannnnn.
then we lepak for awhile,smoke.
then we go to food court to eat (:
abeh maneck and firdaus left.
me , hamka and fidaiiy g rumah liyana
to get chicken. then took bus 8 ah.
reached , pass the chicken. then we pass the money to her.
abeh chaoz balik rumah . then the 2 bozzo's [Hamka & Fiidaiiy ]
lepak at my house . then they chaozzzzzzz. abeh Faris called, nak jumpe.
so we slacked @ mac . bring lappy along. then ton till 7am abeh alek. i sleep for 3 hours.
then bagun then mandi then now on the comp
k bye.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY !

2009-11-03T20:42:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BELATED 15th BIRTHDAY COUSINKU YANG TERSAYANG ! (:
her name is nini , she very the lawa tao (: nak number ask me xD
ummmm. but cuzzie , im still older then you.
cheyy haha ! her birthday was help on 1november (:
3days after mine.
okay i sayang youuuuuuu. come back to singapore soon !

HH !!! slash R.E last performance.

2009-10-31T07:07:00.000-07:00

ITS WAS THE FUCK YEAH AWESOME !! (:
but i was sooooo down when i did not manage to see the STARS last performance.
it was super sad . so yeah , went with aly , gg & vic.
pierce her lips for vic, when we all reached at blackhole.
the 1st pierce was fine , abit of blood only.
when the 2nd side. it hit the blood vessels.
i was fucking alot of blood.i was " okay okay , relax."
but she cannot tahan the pain. so its like.half way in, we pull it back out. sorry vic :/ !
but atleast i pierce the other side for you already !
it was hot in the afternoon. but around 6pm+ it started raining heavily
saw many friends, salamed / hugged them (: then went home with aly.we have to walk in the rain =.= " wtf. hahaha. then eat at mac. (:
it was a fun day actually. so whatever eh. CANT WAIT FOR duaIII.
SEE YOU MOTHER FUCKERS THERE.
chey hahahoh & afrio very chubby xD

p/s: i have to lie. im sorry.

//Here's Some Of The Pictures From Yst (:

Thats Roy (:

Taufeeexxxx !! his so cute

Aly ! here the HOT guy you're talking about (Danny)

baby , for you .

2009-10-30T20:20:00.000-07:00

Crushed, by the sweetest lips I've never kissed
And your fingertips
And the warmest touch that I've always missed
Crushed, by the softest hands I've never held
Probably never tell
You're the strongest love that I've ever felt
Crushed, that I haven't ever let you know
How it always goes'Cause I lose my nerve whenever you get close
And so I'm left, short of breath
With that heavy feelin' in my chest
Baby I'm so Crushed

HH .

2009-10-30T19:32:00.001-07:00

see you when i see you guys there !

FUCK YEAH !

Hi !

2009-10-26T00:20:00.000-07:00

To:Yan♥[271009]

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY ! ♥♥♥

your birthday is tommorow :D

its like 2 days from mine :P

i cant wait to meet you up .

dgr2 nak celebrate birthday together kan.

goodluck for o's cupcake :)

lets chill after o's like theres not tommorow.

oh , and i have a suprise for you.

jumpe soooooooooon !!

xoxo

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Mike Called Today , saying he wanted to meet me up.
so okay ah , reached home. then change. meet him under my block.
dah lamer tak jumpe matrep aku doh ! hahah chey okay not matrep. matsaleh xD
walked to east coust. Chill at one spot. he told me
"Era, close your eyes."
so i did. then he said. okay you can open now.
so like i saw a medium kinda box.
and he told me " Happy Birthday Belo."
what else, im so happy. then he gave me the gift.
then he gave me the tightest hug ever.
he said that his going overseas tommorow.
so he cannot give me on my birthday.
so yeah , it was okay :D then we chilled till 3.
then he send me home. i cannot tell what he gave me.
but its the most memorable thing ever !!
THANKS MIKE :D
sayang kauuuuuuuuuuuu ! ♥

Saturday

2009-10-24T07:49:00.000-07:00

PRESENTING EZEKIEL !!

Met sister (Alice)
then , jamming changed alot of timing =.= "
still, 4 till 5.30. ezekiel Alice's band.
not bad eh , somemore the guitarist call suki.. somthing..
was cute !! he was funny. and yet like i knew them for a long time..
but ha ha, yeah. ezekiel played good (Y) :)
ALICE VOICE POWER !! FTW !!!
then joe came over.. to get my deck.
so hugged him , then i saw tazzy.
then she knew be , but couldn't recognize me.
but haha , oh well xD
then saw mondre and jason.
the were with framework tragedy ? hahaha, after ezekiel jamming session
me and alice went home. :D have fun today. like seriously shit.
i want to meet alice again please -.- !! hehehe.

oohh , and i think im going to form another band with the ANOTHER EPIC STORY nye drummer. be jealous okay ? HAHAHAH. -.-"

KBYE

♥

2009-10-23T15:48:00.000-07:00

please dont ask me out to skate anymore.

officially quited.

but will be taking up rollerblading again.

7years or training mann !! :D

oh and btw,
you know that time me and raudhah.
took one round in 291 .
and then there's this junyuan girls ah.
semua mampat ah. abeh tgh tunggu for the bus ah.
then , they mainmain macam budak kecik. abeh
one of them bump into raudhah.
raudhah tgk kat dier macam dier owe raudhah.
hahaha ! kekek. abeh dalam bus 291 dorang mentel2
irritating sak !! macam nak kene jee. hahahaha !!
okay lah whatever.

Suf

2009-10-23T06:33:00.000-07:00

he ask me to blog about him.

so i did :D

heh , yeap thats his picture.

so okay , now you all can get lost

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Forget About Me.

2009-10-23T03:50:00.000-07:00

why cant you love me?

the way i love you.

it feels so crazy.

cause i dont know what i did to you.

if you're gonna hurt me ,

then do it quickly

cause im tired of crying

if you dont want to stick around.

then baby forget about me.

Too Much To Ask for?

2009-10-21T05:17:00.000-07:00

Find arms that will HOLD you at your weakest,

eyes that SEE you at your ugliest .

and a heart that will LOVE you at your worst,

that is true love.

A True Boyfriend.

sigh.

breeze

2009-10-21T05:08:00.000-07:00

i should stop.

seriously.

i love you.

2009-10-19T06:23:00.000-07:00

the best i ever had.

even tho we fight alot :D

you still my hardcore sista !!

where's the love?

2009-10-16T04:54:00.000-07:00

All i wanted is for you to be here with me.

is that hard to do so?

i doubt it.

Im Here , Always.

2009-10-14T06:57:00.000-07:00

To: ADEK ALYY

i know its hard to get over someone you really love.
i know its hard to
forget someone you really love.
i know its hard to leave someone you really
love.
it hurts when you keep doing this to yourself
right? well i do..
be strong , is the main thing for girls.
it just hurts on every Lil
thing you do.
when everything reminds you of him.
there's more to life ,
there's more then life.
don't worry adek , you'll get someone that really
deserve you
all this jerks don't deserve you ! betol tak?
kalao tak , i
don't know uh ! hahahah.
but please be happy , everyone wants to see you
beautiful smile and shiny teeth.
well meet up again soon , and i bake you
brownies okay ?
i love you forever and always
and I'm always here.

To:Y(inserthearts)

I'm sorry that i couldn't helped you out.
even cheer you up.
i suck as Ur friend.i really do , I'm so sorry .
even you don't want to share Ur problems.
cause you're moody , i cant force you.
I'm always here for you , forever.
till the day i die , i watch over you.
it hurts me enough to see you sad .
I'm sorry i "cheated" on you the last timei didn't realise
whats good is in front of my eyes.
i was hoping you'll come back into my life and be my soul
mate
. but i guess , i was too late to apologise.
im now in pase one of being your friend , cause i love you . i
really do.
i want to see you smile always.
and i want to be with you forever and always.
i want to make you happy then anyone else.
i want to show you how special you are to me .
im telling you once . and again
im here for you , and always
forever.

i want to feel loved, just for once.

2009-10-13T01:16:00.000-07:00

the part when you feel so lonely thats the part im feeling now.

the part when actually someone can accept you for who you really are.

someone who can love you for who you are. cant i feel loved for once?

someone who i can hold hands with happily

someone who can make me laugh endlessly

someone who will hold me close and never wants me to let me go

someone would do anything to make me happy

someone who will be there for me whenever i need a listening ear.

someone who could tell me everything will be alright

someone who will treat me like im his only one.

someone who could tell me im beautiful.

someone who would just hear my voice even its for a min or two.

someone who could just be my LIFE.

how would you feel when someone you really love
ditches you in the end? dont you have the felling of guilt?
heartless jerks like you dont deserve to be in this fucking world.
go and die faggots.

Cinta Ini Membunuhku

2009-10-10T00:52:00.000-07:00

kau hancurkan aku , dengan sikapmu.

Help Me Ah.

2009-10-09T20:01:00.001-07:00

Anyone knows how to play

knock me down - keri hilson?

nak blaja nak blaja main ~

neyhehehe.

(insert hearts)

2009-10-08T07:15:00.000-07:00

I Love Shee Very Very Much.

like as if we known each other a long time ago.

i'll treat you , as if you're like me own sister.

sayang youuuu :D

Finish For Life

2009-10-08T05:55:00.000-07:00

if i die, will everyone start to care?

i guess not.

Dont Go.

2009-10-07T06:29:00.001-07:00

when i read our previous conversations

i cried so much , & hearing PCD - stick with you.

sigh , i dont want you to go.

i cant get over you . really

the laughter and the jokes we shared.

all fade away.

DONT GO :(

i miss you so much.

sigh.

To dharsh.

2009-10-06T22:10:00.000-07:00

yes , i know how you're feeling now.
but you also have to understand what mothers are going thro.
they care for you , they love you they would do anything for you.

if mothers call their daughter names.

i know they did not mean to.

mothers are always protective of their daughters.

yes they do . trust me.

they treat daughters as if we're still in their arms (baby)

they scold you , they hit you.

this is how mother show they really love you.

if a mother does NOT care about their daughters at all.

they would just let their daughters go.

they dont care if you come late at night , or even come home.

they dont care , if you pass or fail ur examintions.

they dont care about you having sex , taking drugs or even drinking.

if one day that will happen. sit down and think what have they actually done for you.

mothers take care of thier children from young , even inside her womb.

if your mother hates you . i think when you're not born .

she will kill you , whatever it takes for her not to have you born.

sit down and think honey , one day . you really know how much you need a mother

i know you feel so useless right?

well , i do sometimes. dont feel so stress about it.

just concentrate on ur O's . leave everything behind okay?
you know i'll always be there.

you know i'll always have.

& i love you :)

Halfcab

2009-10-05T03:02:00.000-07:00

i taught this weren't selling in Singapore

but when i was otw with my friends to have our lunch at century square.(tampines)

we walked pass miz29. i saw they we're selling halfcab

and i was so fuck fuck fucking happy lah kaaan !!

going to drag mummy to buy me this !! like nooowww!!

Miss You Alot .

2009-10-03T21:46:00.001-07:00

[Y;♥]

I Miss You Like Alot Okay?

We'll Celebrate Our Birthday's Together Soon.

[GG;♥]

Chibye, Because Of Exams.

You cant meet me up :(

I miss you bestF. MEET UP VERY SOON !!

[Alice;♥]

Sister. I Miss You I Miss you , i dont know how to discribe

i feel like giving you a tight hug right now.

i want to meet up soon and go shopping together :D

[Fiqqo;♥]

even tho we drifted so far apart.

i miss you so much .

[Aly;♥]

Lets Do Some Merepek Stuff

When We meet okay adek?

[Zee;♥]

I MISS YOUUUU !!!

and zul misses you too ^^.

hehhehe

[SarahElfac;♥]

i miss you thonchet girl :(

[Hanis;♥]
i miss you chipmunk voice.
and i miss you :(

[Khai;♥]
i miss you gay ass.
L4D soon.

[Sham;♥]
I MISS YOU BOY !! :D
lets kacao GG tgt soon. heh !

[Ajie;♥]
i miss pinching you !
:D and yes i still owe you a donut.

To All in the pictures.
you dont know how much i misss you okay !!
i want to meet up with you all already .
:(

Soon Well Get.

2009-10-03T08:25:00.000-07:00

Get Well Soon Faryz.

From The Tragic Accident ;(

takecare of yourself okay?

lain kali bawak motor 2 baik2 ^^.

Raya

2009-09-29T21:25:00.000-07:00

i've been mia from internet life , for a while.
heh . cause computer in storage :)
yesterday i went out to jalan raya with friends.
kecohrable.
1.makan banyak
2.stuck in lift (LOL)
3.balik lambat
4. ketawe macam ada 100 orang.
5. buat bende merepek.
all gether my house around 4.00+ should be 3.15 they reach here.
in the end the girls were late. and the boys have to wait for them under my block
for 30 minutes. hahaha, took alot of pictures.
mee goreng slash ayan goreng aku kene habiskan by dorang.
ish , macam tak makan 3 hari gituk. hahah!
then we headed to fidaiiy's , nazura's , aishah's , firdaus's and syazwan's
firdaus house is the part we got stuck in the lift for 20minits.
sampai the boys all gadoh in the lift, cause all tak tao nak diamdiam.
chibye, 2 part aku bingit sak. dah lah kene squash nan orang. -.-
sampai syazwan bingit he shouted macam whole flat nak roboh.
until he too angry till he cry :/ lol.
then after the incident. they all decided to left home.
its already 11pm. me , hamka , fidaiiy and syazwan.
headed to syazwan's crib. chill for abit. reached home 12.00+
penat giler. lol , oh and saturday = fareast w kazz.
k bye !!

[Pictures]

case mate merah . takle pakai contacts. ngagis aku,

more will be uploaded soon. stay tune ^^

haha lol.

2009-09-24T17:17:00.001-07:00

This is for you

from the 1st time i met you.

a friendly dood with a smile on his face.

a funny dude. :)

when i knew you a lil better.

when i started liking you.

much more when i already falling for you.

love grows very strong when i start to worry for you.

tried caring for you , did everything i can do.

even tho we're not together. i know im over-reacting lah kan.

but im typing this for what i really feel inside.

since you dont even care for me , a single thing.

i dont really care much about what you think of me.

from what i know , i already love you .

and im going still do. but WHATS THE POINT when i do still?

from what i know , i dident even open my mouth and start spreading rumors that

im attached to you , no i dont.

i told them we are not together yes , but people start to get the wrong idea.

i wanted to be friends , but i cant stop my self. and just go with the flow.

since you know what your actually doing.

i never want to be this way , wanted to get back where we used to be.

but i dont want to hurt myself and also hurt you.

i wanted to walk out of your life. i try so hard just to forget about you.

but the flashbacks keeps coming , and it really hurts me.

the way you walked off without saying goodbye.

but i still regard you as a friend , i still do.

but this feeling inside just wont dissapear i guess.

all day you're in my mind . like your haunting me

like you're my nightmare.

when i see green , i think of you .

when i laugh , i think of you.

when i bake , i think of you.

everything i think of you .

and why should i be existing in your life now lah kan?

i want you just to be happy ^^. and i'll be too.

i told you once. " it hurts me enough to see you sad/angry"

" your smile makes me happier then anyone can."

you know , i still care for you.

i still worry for you.

i still and always love you.

and always i'll be there for you.

well, i have nothing much to say now .

i hope you read this okay?

Takecare.

sigh.

2009-09-22T19:19:00.001-07:00

hurts deeply . and i dont want to care.

GOODBYE WORLD.

(WITH A FUCKING FULLSTOP)

2009-09-18T18:02:00.000-07:00

i miss cascada's songs =/

Please.

2009-09-18T07:17:00.000-07:00

Pretty Please?

Buy Me This.

I Swear I Love you FOREVER.

^^.

Lol.

2009-09-18T00:42:00.001-07:00

haha , yesterday in school was slacking
kinda.. i dont know..
but i remembered when my class had CME.
hahaha. i was talking to zafirah . drag my chair, and set beside her
we were talking about some stuff. and suddenly
Raudhah:" You Know Cheese Cake , they never use real cheese to make it. then use cream cheese."
Me: Really? i tot they got siah ! i see one video they put.
Raudhah: no , they put cream cheese only
Me: but i saw the video they put real cheese!
Raudhah: noo ! they dont. they put cream cheese.
Me: *stampping the ground,shaking my head* nononono!! but i saw the video!! they put real cheese!
then Mr Ong (Form Teacher)

Mr Ong: Syaherah, Go Back To Your Seat, Since You Keep Talking.
Me: What? ChesseCake? * Laughs.
Mr Ong: *Laughs. you , go back to ur seat . i rether have you sleeping then talking
-whole class laughs-
Me: okayokay. i wont talk. *giggles.

bby, going to work. gosh imma gonna miss him for 6hours.
hope he calls when he reach home :)
i love you b ^^

wah lao eh.

2009-09-16T03:01:00.000-07:00

knuckle.

too bad, ur not here already.

im already lost, when someone picked me up once again.

but we will still stay as friends, dont have to worry :)

we will still , celebrate our birthdays together.

but , just a lil upset about that day .

but im okay now.

this blog is alr dead, i dont know what to blog about

i should just call it a deadblog. or better,DELETE BLOG.

ah , fuck this world already

hari raya is coming , and i dont really feel the excitment in me.

but , wth ah. asalkan dapat duit (Y)

HAHA. chibye siah aku.

okay bye.

unanswered.

2009-09-12T16:17:00.000-07:00

when im down , you were there to cheer me up.

this feeling grows. when we bond.

we havent had fights :) cause you'll understand.

the way you talk to me. is out of this world.

the more you come close. the more my feeling grows.

haha, k im so the kental.

[oh and lets talk about my saturday.

tot i dident meet goregirl.

but in the end met her at 4.30 city hall.

slack till, dont know what time. went back home with her.

get some stuff. then headed to gay-lang with her.

haha , we laughed about "ilovedodol,shiockshiock"

haha, k random. then she acompanied me to buy my contacts.

and tako yaki. then she went home.

forget about , mywallet & my ipod is with her.

lucky she's not in the train yet. so called her. met at paya lebar.]

so thats how i spend my day.

and im glad that me and alice

is back together :) and as a temporary drummer for roam

love ya sista. x3

k imma go turn in now. meoooow =3

Love You.

2009-09-09T03:09:00.000-07:00

Love You Sarah Elfac ( insert hearts )

that made me opened up my eyes.

I Wanted You.

2009-09-09T02:43:00.000-07:00

lately i've been trying hard to push the door.

trying to take us back to where we were before.

but im done, i just cant do this anymore.

speaking of which. one night, i was walking alone at eastcoust. ( was thinking of something ) i just need space.

when someone actually tap me from the back.

it was my ex. this is how the conversation started.

Era: Eh , Hey.
Him: Era.. *Hugs
Era: *Stand Still with eyes open wide. *shocked.
-pushes him away-
Him: You.. Alone?
Era: Yes, Why?
Him: Me Too.
-Takes My Hand-
Him: *smiles. Jom, Kite G Jln2 Sama2
Era: *Blushes, umm okay.
so we walked, and went to a spot to chill.
Him: How Are You?
Era: im okay, then you?
Him: just broke up with my girl, 2 weeks ago.
Era: Oh, im sorry to hear that. you okay?
Him: yeah , im fine. *smiles.
We Talked Like An Hour . Or More.
Then suddenly. He Stared To Grab Me From The Waist.
And Kissed Me Gently.
from that moment onwards, i feel so guitly.
guilty of kissing him , cause im in love with someone else.
Him: Era, Sorry.
Era: I think i better go home now, its getting late.
*walks off.

LIKE MOVIE RIGHT?! I KNOW.

but its a real thing yo.

just wanted to share a lil story with y'all

since i have nothing to blog about.

gosh, my ex is getting hotter then before now.

HAHA ! okay stop.

we'll meet again soon right ____?

till here.

1

2009-09-07T18:05:00.000-07:00

Hi ! imma meet raudhah soon.

and also going to skate at the streets.

damn im bored. these days has been boring.

but i dont care. raya coming alraedy!

go jalan2 tgt soon guys !

chioz.

so much for my happy ending.

2009-09-04T20:40:00.000-07:00

A Very Happy Ending To Everyone.
So Much For Mine?

I Dont Understand What Im Really Feeling Inside.

Why Is This Always Happening To Me?

I Have To Change I know.

But What About People. Who Just Dont Accept The Inner Beauty Of Me?

except for classmates,outside friends.

they really mean alot to me.

but the one who really mean alot to me is him

my feelings for him = never fades.

why? cause his the one who never lets me frown.

the one who always makes me smile.

but now , i think i've lost him..

idk.. maybe.. i need you here right now.

you seem so far away. i need you noow.

like right noww. i know you busy and all.

i cant wait to celebrate our bdea's tgt.

27 and 29

break-fast with classmates bracket Y bracket

2009-09-04T07:33:00.001-07:00

reached home at 1plus going 2 already.

so shower, and such. met mum to get money

head to tamp mrt control station

met haziq

im sorry haziq because we missed our movie.

really sorry.

so we just lepak uh , since he has to leave early.

he left around 4, so i headed to meet hamka.

text aidil , wanted to meet up.

in the end he cant. so nevermind.

wan and fii came..

headed to tamp inter. waited for qamarina.

toold bus 29 . headed to changi village.

a laughter in the bus indeed. haha!!

reached. then called maneck.

Era:Kau Kat Ne?
Maneck: Aku Masi Kat Tamp Siah , Bus 29 lambat siol.
Era: otak kau lah.
*hangs.

so yeahh.. then we buke 1st uh , since he arrived late.

ate nasi ayam penyet. and drink FnN Fruitade.

better thank me for blanjaring you all drinks =.=

Damn , was fucking full. then maneck arrived.

me and hamka wait for him to eat, then fii wan and qam went to smoke.

then we left to ice kacang durian.

bought 3 , share 2. :)

it was nice uh. heartwarming xD.

then we went to changi beach to lepak and such.

take pictures uhh. then me and qam went home 1st.

took bus 59 i think.. then we laugh because of..

try saying . " new loyang link." many times.

its like a tounge twister. we laugh like hell lah

i ended up saying " new Lo Lang Ling "

hahahaha ! pecah perut siahs.

then reached home at nearly 10.

okay bye ramugam's

(shakimie's made up name )

Bring This Down.

2009-09-03T03:00:00.000-07:00

I is very weak from fasting month

but i have to endure.

this few days I've bump into many outside friends.

like common people who go gig's and such.

don't know why leh. since i never go alot of gig's already

i miss you all leh. really.

and i really have to buck up on my studies.

i really have to concentrate. i have to cut down on sitting in front

of the computer for the whole day and also cutting down on going gig's

do unnecessary stuff. tommorow getting back the result slip.

i know i fail quite alot now. and my mum is going to kill me for sure.

and im kinda down these few days. when i walk to school or back home ALONE.

i will just look down . and frown.

and i just hate it. anyone can cheer me up?

what?

2009-08-31T07:53:00.000-07:00

I'm not the best for you.
i miss you.
why must everyone falls apart ?
i don't want to see couples in pain/broken.
fighting over a small matter.
the world is seriously going to end very soon.
fast forward. yet i fucked to be living in this world.
no one appreciates. every Lil thing i do.
yet i still go in pain to keep loving you.
i want to say i love you.
but if this the way you're going treat me . then be with it.
i be myself.
FUCK OFFFFFF !!
im going to eat now.

Tired.

2009-08-31T07:33:00.000-07:00

went to school, ended at 10plus.

headed home. then played the comp till 12plus.

went out around 1plus. met gg at city hall at 2.

went to espl. slack till idk what time hahaha.

saw nerd from str8forward.

but he never saw us. hahahha. k.

then went to tamp/pasir ris/paya lebar.

break fast with gg at geylang.

then walkwalk. fucking hot siah !

then send her home.

k , i think thats all. bye

fuck you people who make me jealous by going to baybeats and start moshing.

what?

2009-08-28T22:15:00.000-07:00

i doubt you'd call yesterday.

takpe uh , dah biase :)

so yeah , yesterday break-fast @ geylang.

i dident eat alot tho..

knew that F was at geylang. cause alyy told me.

then tak dapat jumpe uh , i try to find him. hahaha~

so yeah alyy was at geylang also.

then i met her ^^. with her mum uh.

her mum cool (y) then talk to her about fakes and crap.

then she went off ^^.

i see alot of minahREPs recently.. and one of them actually give me that face.

irritating much ? bitch much ?

okay , today's saturday

want to go to baybeats. should i ?

but i dont have a peny siah ! hahahah.

i have nothing to blog about now.

just dissapointed.

bye.

what now?

2009-08-27T07:04:00.000-07:00

it seems so hard to tell you this.

but would you just come back to me?

i miss the old you , the one who always makes me high

with Ur words can describe how cant i forget you.

reading our previous conversations.

i feel like I'm with you all over again.

you're the one never makes me down.

you're the one who always cheers me up

you're the one who accepts me for who i am.

and you know you wont be forgotten.

I MISS THE OLD YOUUUUUU.

come back :( even tho you're not far away from meeeeee.

i need you now.

P.s

If You're Reading This, Yes Its you . :(

LALA

2009-08-27T01:22:00.000-07:00

GOREGIRL OWES ME THIS !!

SHE TOOK ALL OF IT WHEN I BOUGHT THIS LAST WEEK :(

I WANT IT NOOOOOOW !!

i dont know

2009-08-26T04:01:00.000-07:00

A Great Book , With Great Mind.

i dont know what im saying

i feel so lonely, super lonely.

like emo ?

i dont know wether i have friends that will

be there for me. whats wrong?

is anything wrong with me.

makes you all just dissapear in thin air?

all i have now is goregirl, the one who has gone with me

thro thick and thin. and i know shes the true friend i have.

i will cherish every moment i had with her.

even for a short while. i miss you all.

can any of you just tag me by the tag board and tell me wether

you're still here as a friend?

i miss everyone. yes everyone.

all the gig people

elfac,hanis,zee,mondre.

all of you :( i am really confuse.

yet , am i too ugly to be ur friend?

i dont know , maybe?

bye.

wondering..

2009-08-25T05:33:00.000-07:00

our band is falling apart ?

oh well , we all are busy with stuffs.

so give roam a break kay guys. good luck joe with ur o's. :)

well, im so bored right now.

fasting has started.

now time to diet :) nyehehe.

i lost 3kg ! happyyyyyyy.

and i cant wait for raye.

oh yeah , next friday going buke with classmates at changi village.

nak join? nyehehe. step je nak seoul garden. abeh takd duit.

nyaha. cant wait :) im such a happy girl now.

i have officially avoid to text to guys or even add or talk.

friends yes, but this sweet talk all go and die k ?

im tottally over it :) yay era! * pat on the back ^^.

p.s - why your so obsessed with me?

boleh tunggu per. kalao tak go carik pompan lain ah so?

aku taknak 2 taknak ah . jangan pakse.

rembat nak? taknak kan? k blah.

waste.

2009-08-16T04:55:00.000-07:00

p.s i miss you so much.

well, so much for not going to ep launch.
haha, but oh well ! i hope you guys have fun
i know goregirl did. :)
my sorethroat is getting worst.
i dident speak for alomost a day now.
i tell you , when i speak.
you'll laugh. trust me. lol
but its a good thing i got 3 days mc .
so i'll be in school by thursday.

YAY ME ! IM SO LUCKY OR WHAT.
this r/s thingy is such a drag. sometimes i wonder.

i dont feel like having one.

but something i miss having one?

am i a confuse person?

i dont know , so what the fuuuuuuck.

3 guys , over me. and i choose 1 guy.

the 1 guy went away . now im all alone.

yay me. happy girl! not.

regret

2009-08-15T03:02:00.000-07:00

WHY MUST EVERY DAY IN MY LIFE FILLED WITH MISERY !
CAUSE I MISS STEPASIDE AND COMRADE EP LAUNCH
CAUSE OF MY BAD SORETHROAT.
YEAH THATS ABOUT IT! I THINK IM GOING TO DAY.

---

2009-08-14T06:01:00.000-07:00

well, my i can barely speak now.

my sorethroat worst. grrrr.

i need boyfriend now.

talking about my day today.

well, jamming cancle due lack of members.

so , went to sessions instead.

went to cityhall to meet joe,regeena,goregirl,tyzz&ehsia.

i tell you we lepak like theres no tommorow.

lol. blahblahblah. around 6.30 we chiaoz. from espl.

then, me gg regeena and her friend we went to somerset.

blahblahblah , went home.

gosh , my eardrum hurts like hell.

like going to burst. omfg.

whats wrong.

2009-08-10T23:41:00.000-07:00

go ahead, take sean. i dont really mind.

sean your close friend what right?

i dont want to be a light bulb lah k?

so do whatever you want with him

as long he still have the heart for roam.

if he dosent , and wants to go on with you.

is my pleasure.

yeah , you can all blame me.

im the trouble maker.

yet im only freaking 15. i have a mature mind.

whats wrong when your in the hardcore scene.

dosent mean you only have to hear grindcore,hardcore.

whats wrong hearing other genre's?

like, PEE WEE GASKINS.

i dont want to blabber. cause its only a band.

you dont have to be so proud about it.

yet, when i still want you to be by my side.

you left me here, with what?

i moved our bassist to drums.

and i moved to bassist/vocals.

so you could stand infront.

i wanted to tell you . but you dident give me a chance.

you dont know how happy i am , for you to finally found your truelove.

before that, you also have blabber to me about you wanting a boyfriend to.

am i not right?

someone is starting to like me , and what you answer?

" lol, good lah ."

but its fine with me. i cant control you just to come back to be my friend again.

its your path , and its your choice. i just wannt to wish you all the best

for the future and your future band lah k?

this is my last post im going to blog about you.

yes you. and im sick of this too.

takecare.

p.s - you can throw away my bracelet i gave you.

or whatever.

blaah.

2009-08-09T17:09:00.001-07:00

Now adays , Friends Come And Go.

Even Bestfriends Come And Go.

I Think The World Is Going To End Soon.

People Started Changing.

Well, im going to change too.

i dont want to be the soft-hearted , kind to others ERA anymore.

i dont want to care. cause when i care, and soft-hearted and also kind to others.

i am sure they will step on my head, so its the new me.

you cant take advantage on someone who just cares for you.

be there for you when you need them.

and what do you do ?

just leave them dying on the floor?

your selfish and heartless.

you always think about yourself.

people like you dosent need to exist in this world.

i try to be nice to everyone , just everone.

& what do they do ? step on my fucking head ?

this world dosent need more then you ask for.

*sigh.

----------------------------------

oh yeah , i dont want to fall in love anymore.

boys are just fucking heartless

and dosent know what im really feeling inside.

i think im going to be a lesbian.

*joking.

hahahahah , but seriously .

im so sick of love .

Judge others. oh your fat , i dont like you.

oh your ugly i dont like you

THIS IS WHAT YOU CALL LOVE?

well fuck you.

if i can , i want to say out the names. but what the fuck ah

im nice , so i dont do mean things to MEAN people.

i remember what ajie says " jodoh adelah di dalam tangan tuhan."

YEAH , jodoh ?! HAHAHAHA.

YOU BOYS ARE SUPER MEAN TO UGLY/FAT GIRLS.

WHAT , YOU JUST WANT TO FIND HOT GIRLS

SO YOU JUST COULD FUCK THEM UPSIDE DOWN?

i tell you , some girls who are thin / hot .

they one dick not enough , trust me.

so , either you want a ugly/fat girl . with a clean heart.

or hot chicks with loose vigina?

think about it , really think about it.

cause i really think this world is going to end very soon.

so clear you heart and mind . and do the right thing.

P.s

If Anyone Get Offended By This Post.

i dont know what to say .

cause im talking about PEOPLE.

if you think im talking about you.

JANGAN PRASAN.

thanks you very much.

...

2009-08-09T16:43:00.001-07:00

OUR FRIENDSHIP ENDS HERE.

with a fullstop.

GOODBYE.

dedicated to someone who just dissapear.

2009-08-08T20:59:00.000-07:00

We say it's okay and to leave it alone
But I want you to notice this case isn't closed
Doors are open, the lights are left on
And there's never a night I sleep
With the dreams that I'd have if you never decided, decided to leave
Decided, decided to leave

There's never an ounce that I breathe
Without thinking about who I could have been with you
There's never an ounce that I breathe
Without thinking about who I could have been if you didn't leave

The phones been patient to hear your call, but you never touched the dial
You never touched the dial and now I know
There's someone I wish walked through these halls
But you'll never take the chance to come home
So come home

We say we can learn from this
But I just don't know what to do without you anymore, anymore
Your absence is taking its toll on me
What I should believe, I just can't believe

There's never an ounce that I breathe
Without thinking about who I could have been with you
There's never an ounce that I breathe
Without thinking about who I could have been if you didn't leave

The phones been patient to hear your call, but you never touched the dial
You'll never touched the dial and now I know
There's someone I wish walked through these halls
But you'll never take the chance to come home
So come home

You say it isn't my fault so I steer away
I put off the pain for another day
Did you think it wouldn't be tough? 8 years were never enough
I'll wait for you
If you never change I will be okay
But I'll still stay up for you
Just in case you make the time for the right move

The phones been patient to hear your call, but you never touched the dial
You never touched the dial and now I know
There's someone I wish walked through these halls
But you'll never take the chance to come home
So come home

There's someone I wish walked through these halls, but you never touched the dial
You'll never touched the dial and now I know
The phones been patient to hear your call,
But you'll never take the chance to come home
And you'll never take the chance to come home
Just come home

Weird Dream

2009-08-08T20:28:00.001-07:00

Sumpah Ni Mimpi Weird Macam Babi.

( babi weird?) takd link.

okok, i dreamt that i went to a gig and a band called V_____ performed.

cause i know his in the band as a vox

figure our urself. obviously its not vermillion

but whatever.

oh and then after the gig. i remeber it was at fad.

so yeahh. uhh i dont know ah

so i sat with my friend & he was next to my friend

then suddenly ape ke bende tah.

my friend wants to take picture of both of us.

cause now we are not really called friends tao.

so i was like eerrr... and my friend was like " hurry ah."
*holds the camera getting ready to take a picutre.*

cause my friend dident know that we are not that close anymore.

we barely talk to each other now. i mean like forever never talk.

then he started to grab my shoulder just to get close and take a picture.

so whatever ah . just smiled.

then my friend took a picture of us.

then i dontknow ah. we became friends back . then he started like laying on my lap.

so we like just talk. and idk why this feeling just grew.

suddenly, my friend wanted to go home.

then my friend said" eh era, lets go uh. "

im like " okay. "

wanted to get back up.

he tried to pull me down . cause he dosent want me to leave.

i said " ____ , dosent want me to go"

my friend was like " hurry ! pulling my hand* eh ___ lepaskan dier!"

and he said " taknak, aku taknak dier balik . lepak skejap please."

then i said " nevermind lah , i go home k . i'll see you soon."

and then with his sad faace. " okay."

then i said " okay , bye. *salams"

then he started pulling my hand and hugged me, when i wanted to let go.

he dosent let go. and he kissed my cheecks.

and i woke up ! chibye nabei . i tot real.

hhahahah. k ni merepek . dont layan me

...

2009-08-08T18:59:00.000-07:00

when i tried to talk to you , you ignore me.
how am i going to understand you?
its just that i dont know lah , but you know i still love you the best.
i dont have a new bestfriend.
i dont have groupies. i really miss you.
& i still need you.
but i know your happy with ur new school friends and your new boyfriend.
thats why you started changing.. i dont know wether you are. or maybe its just me.
gg and i is organizing a gig . and i want our band to perform.
but i dont want to left you out. so, i try to understand and i want roam just to chill for a while.
so we wont have any performance till my N lvl's are over. is that fair to you?
i know its fair to everyone.

and P.s
those readers tought my blog is kecoh , then dont read.
DONT FUCKING READ?! FUCK LAH CHIBYE.
is my blog . is my say , so ? DEAL WITH IT AH .
pragai swine siah korang.

dosent make sense.

2009-08-08T08:14:00.000-07:00

if you have the time to make a new band and go jamming.

why dont you have time for roam?

it dosent make sense.

ckp jiwe roam , but i dont see your commitment anymore.

why?

Uncut Uncensored slash Jamming

2009-08-08T08:03:00.000-07:00

Time Check : 11:04pm
just came bacccck !
had jamming, last minute always like this.
our new original is turning out well.
went to uc uc
was okay , but can do better.
missed stepaside, grrr.
i just dont have the urge to just sing along.
and seriously. no fucking mood lah chibye.
overthrown just did a great set.
i hope to see you guys again (y)
imma turn in now. super sleepy.
goodnight all

Cant Wait

2009-08-07T05:02:00.000-07:00

i cant wait for uncut uncensored tommorow! hahahahah. oh and my link is underconstruction.

and goregirl! we eat roti prata tgt okay ! love youuu !

Yay!

2009-08-07T04:36:00.000-07:00

syazwan zainal.

MUKE AKU KEKEK SIA CHIBYE!

him" eh , amek gambar ah. aku tgk screen kau tgh amek."

me-" haha okay. "

oh , and i changed my blogskin

lalala!

where?

2009-08-07T03:02:00.000-07:00

i need a bestfriend, anyone?

the one who just could understand what im going thro right now.

and the one who have the heart just to listen to all my problems.

anyone?

Why?

2009-08-06T00:34:00.000-07:00

you changed alot. i dont know you
anymore.
i miss the old you .

Saltwater Room.

2009-08-05T01:42:00.000-07:00

Her-"Time together is just never quite enough"
Him-"When you and I are alone, I’ve never felt so at home"
Her-"What will it take to make or break this hint of love?"

Him-"We need time, only time"
Her-"When we’re apart whatever are you thinking of?"
Him-"If this is what I call home, why does it feel so alone?"
Her-"So tell me darling, do you wish we’d fall in love?"

Him-" All The Time, Baby."

MACAM AIR SIAH!

2009-08-04T05:32:00.001-07:00

i respect her, cause shes a girl!

see her solo! what the fuccccck

Geez.

2009-07-31T22:46:00.000-07:00

i dont know why,

now adays. people take skating as a trend.

dont please. its not the way of life.

dont go around bringing your cheap deck.

and say " oh, imma skater. i can do tricks."

oh, what tricks you can do?

u dont even know whats a nosegrind lah girl.

" oh, nosegrind is the one you do ollie and turn your deck around right?"

well no. and i will go like this

" YAH! WAH PRO!"

you dont know whats a truck.

kimice. even my grandma knows better than you.

you said you can do ollie, when i saw you at ecp skatepark that day

you cant even do it ! mf lah nabei!

so i asked " eh,buat ollie ah. kater kau boleh buat?"

she said , " uhh, cant. my ankle sakit. "

you just go around showing of that your a skaterchic.

people wont be so proub. so think twice before you go off somewhere

YOUR NOT.

bloody poser.

p.s i miss regeena :( my skater girl !

dharsh.<3

2009-07-31T06:20:00.000-07:00

http://yummypistols.blogspot.com/
I, ERA SWEAR THAT WHOEVER BREAKS MY DARLING DHARSH HEART.
i will skin you alive, read her blog. she made my day :)
i love you baby cakes!
lets blow chocolate bubbles. and cam-whore like there's no tommorow.
fuck love fuck all of you.

3rd post.

2009-07-31T04:51:00.000-07:00

im crying non-stop while blogging this.

i swear

i need a guy, just accept me for who i am.

is that to much to ask for?

am i a monster. who just scares you?

what am i? we all are humans.

face it. i just cant be bothered to be hurt anymore.

i can stop this tragedy. its just going in deeper.

i feel like dying, im nothing towards anyone anymore.

im rotten, im thrown away. imma useless person.

get use to it. im fucking angry, and im fucking sad.

FUCK EVERYONE! FUCK EVERONE! GET LOST!

People Who Just Dont Face It.

2009-07-31T03:30:00.000-07:00

if you think your so perfect, then think again.

if i can accept you for who you are.

why cant you do the same?

i tought you were different.

when i tought your not.

you the same as other, a selfish jerk.

a very selfish jerk.

most of the guys living in this fucking world.

is just so fucking selfish. you all can go die.

and i'll dance on your grave. think twice

when you want to mess with me.

I CAN BE VERY NICE TO YOU.

but dont try to step on my head.

dont take advantage of me.

i can look innocent.

but deep inside. i can be cruel , cruel-er then the devil.

i dare to do, so dont push me. fuck you.

Second Place Victory.

2009-07-31T03:09:00.000-07:00

So Here We go.

Lets Show Them How To Live,

Accept The Pain , Always Forgive.

Watch The Sun Go Down,

Learn The Sound By Following.

All thats complete.

Day With Schoolmates

2009-07-30T03:38:00.000-07:00

Had Fun At Sentosa, with school mates.

The Weather Was Hot. And My Tempreture Went Up.

we had laughs and such,

it was 3.30 and we still havent leave from sentosa.

cause i promised arrmi. i meet him at city hall at 3.30.

i was super late. met him at 4.15?

haha, had a couple of shots. then around 6

he send me home :)

that was my day so far. k bye!

ROAM[bandmates]

2009-07-26T21:53:00.001-07:00

im sorry guys,

i dont know what im saying.

but yeah.

im so sorry Alice,Sean,Joe.

but mostly i want to say sorry to ALICE. my sister love

that understands me what im going thro

but i just dont give time just to understand her.

im really sorry

and i hope you all with forgive me.

alice please dont hate me ?

i love you so much . i dont want to lose you as my sisterlove :(

To Roam[Bandmates]

2009-07-26T04:34:00.000-07:00

if your reading this, im not forcing you to have jamming.

yes i really understand that you all are busy

BUT IM ASKING, cant i ask if you all are free?

issit really WRONG to fucking ask?

if your not free, am i going to scold you?

no right? whats the fuzz about?

i also have studies to cope.

its not only you guys. yes im the youngest in the band

i only have 1 fucking year to my N level.

is not long. now its already half a year to reach to 2010.

if i can understand you all, why can you understand me?

im just asking, there's no wrong in that.

if your not free, then be it lah.

[but alice, your right. lets take a break.]

im not blaming you all. yes i blame myself.

im fucking irritating right, keep asking if you all are free for jamming.

then, to make this up to you guys

i wont ask about the band anymore. i dont want to bother.

so, if all of you guys are free. then talk to me.

cause i wont fucking ask you all if you guys are free to have jamming

have a nice day.

chippy

2009-07-25T21:14:00.001-07:00

Edited by me!

alalala

2009-07-25T09:07:00.001-07:00

time check : 12.07am

and i just came back home from sweet or sweat slash cermin.

& i saw someone at the gig,suddenly. i miss you.

:( im dead beat. i'll post about today. tommorow.

okay. goodnight.

:(

2009-07-24T17:41:00.000-07:00

i dont know, but i miss her

are you changing ? :(

i want you back pleaseee.

Lalala~

2009-07-24T06:43:00.000-07:00

i woke up, at 6.30am.

took a shower. put on my uniform.

did my hair. and im off to school.

had, English,CPA,EBS(P),recess & also maths for last.

went down. and saw ayla. went to tampines inter with her.

bought double chocolate frappe at mccafe.

took bus 31 with ayla. and i headed home.

reached home. change to my unitshirt. and my school skirt.

classic vans. and out of th house i go.

well, i went for cca duuh.

npcc was a draggggggg. i dident do anything.
i helped out with the logistics. then went to help jin wen to take care of the sec1's.

i dident really do anything. when i played passing the ball with maneck and ungeh.

when, the ball came fast. it hit me on the face.

i was cursing in the store room , one bucket. haha.

and then i teared. and i lauged =.=

ended at 6.30 got out new uniforms.

went to get drinks w maneck. and took 291 with maneck.

then i droped infront of the tampines library.

took 15. and i headed home. and my eyes are like halfway close!

when im typing now. but ohh well, thats my day today so far.

and im going to sweet or sweat tommorow=.=

see you guys there. whoever is going.

bye.

Birthday girl

2009-07-24T04:55:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY Thonchet girl! ^^
[ known as sarahdiyana]
your the best girlfriend i ever had.
and i want to cherish every moment i had with you.
you now that i will always love you.
have a fun day today ^^

what the hack malik. crack me up

2009-07-22T06:39:00.000-07:00

Fai 24/7 Hungry la seh writes:

*draws a dinosour
- xErawr, ♥ says:
oh sorry!
lupe nak reply
miss me issit
Fai 24/7 Hungry la seh says:
haha
lol
Fai 24/7 Hungry la seh writes:

* a face with hand cover mouth
- xErawr, ♥ says:
huh
maksod mu ape siih?
Fai 24/7 Hungry la seh says:
it means
i nvr said anything
- xErawr, ♥ says:
lol
Fai 24/7 Hungry la seh writes:
* a person listening to music

- xErawr, ♥ says:
Fai 24/7 Hungry la seh says:
haha
- xErawr, ♥ says:
u serious takd keje
Fai 24/7 Hungry la seh says:
yup2
im bored
if im bored
i'll draw
so if i draw
it means im bored
bak to drawing
Fai 24/7 Hungry la seh writes:

* a person shitting
- xErawr, ♥ says:
Fai 24/7 Hungry la seh writes:

* a person dancing
- xErawr, ♥ says:
haha wth
Fai 24/7 Hungry la seh says:
haha
im bored
i can even draw ya
- xErawr, ♥ says:
ok draw now
Fai 24/7 Hungry la seh writes:

* draws my face
- xErawr, ♥ says:
that dosent look like me
o.o
i look cutter please.
Fai 24/7 Hungry la seh says:
lol!
- xErawr, ♥ says:
ur a bad artist!

Remember

2009-07-21T01:30:00.000-07:00

see what u need.

feel what u need.

u can feel what you seek.

maybe i can help you complete.

remember this sentence. and remember me.

i'll update a proper one soon.

Change.

2009-07-21T01:04:00.000-07:00

EVERY ONE'S CHANGING

AND I'M DYING.

get lost world

Sexcited Saturday.

2009-07-18T19:58:00.000-07:00

Im Going To Blog About What Happen Yesterday

1st, woke up text khai. went to have breakfast.

and watch tv. and went to shower.

around 1.30 get dressed to go to aftermosh.

took bus 197 and bussed down to bugis.

met up with gg at bhg to buy gg's bra. (inside joke) HAHAHA.

no, tak k tak buy bra. just kidding.

waited for liya at beats. while we were starving to have our lunch.

suddenly mondre & elfac came. gosh im so happy to see my thonchet girl!

hugged her super tight. mondre & elfac were also starving.

so we went to the prata shop near beats.

ate till full liao. met alif and others. went to crawls space.

alot of streetpunks metalheads rudeboys and idk lah!

we went to the wrong side of crawls space.

the person gave us direction for the other studio.

reached. salamed everyone. nyahah.

the gig delayed like super long can

and aidil was super late please ! -.-

so, lid help with the 1st song.

and then aidil came, like finally.

oh & the place like smaller than beats i tell you.

but not alot of people came. so nevermind.

1st band was BEHEAD THE MANNEQUIN

2nd was HER SILENT WISH

3rd was Murdered For Revenged

last band was Passenger Service.

i swear i had a great time.

after the gig, saw taufiq ^^.

smiled/salamed him.

then all of us went to 7-11 to get drinks and stuff.

i tell you yantoi cute siaah . with his face.

scared of lipas. Nyahaha.

Yantoi-"eeee, * jumps around"

His Expressions Make Me Laugh.

so walked till idk where. we parted off. saying buy to all.

so me and gg went to marina square to see fireworks.

it ended at 8.30 , but it was worth it . nyehaha.

after that met up with khai,tyzz and all.

AND I HAD A GREAT TIME I SWEAR.

laughters heard, talk non stop (especially gg)

played card games.

Laugh non stop, parted with hugs and salamed.

it was 10.30 and im dead beat.

went home with malik. but i took a cab.

so salamed malik , and his off to mrt.

got home, wash face, leg , hand and brush theeth.

messaged khairul, still sleep.

oh, and here is the happy people hardcore dancing.

The Rest are in my myspace.

so grab them okay! okay go!

i had fun yesterday

thanks to you guys made me smile all the way

even tho im sad inside =/

okay , Cheers.

A SCREAMING SESSION WITH GG

2009-07-17T04:44:00.000-07:00

GG! //GET ON YOUR KNEES! says:
HUH? I HOPE THE SKA GIG CANCEL SIA
THE SKA GIG CANCEL MORE BETTER
LOL

- xErawr , eye em why♥ says:
HAHA
I AGREE LORH

GG! //GET ON YOUR KNEES! says:
SOMEMORE WHY THE SKA GIG SO FUCKING LONG SIA
3 TO 111

- xErawr , eye em why♥ says:
THATS WHY
THEY CAN GO LICK YOUR PUSSY

GG! //GET ON YOUR KNEES! says:
EEEEEEE
YUCK
PUSSSY
AHAHHAHAH!

- xErawr , eye em why♥ says:
HAHA!

GG! //GET ON YOUR KNEES! says:
OMG. DID U JUST TALK ABOUT PUSSSIES?
PUSSIES
EWWWWWWWWWWWW

- xErawr , eye em why♥ says:
YEAH
PUSSYCAT.

GG! //GET ON YOUR KNEES! says:
ACTUALLY PUSSY IS A REALLY DISGUSTING WORD

- xErawr , eye em why♥ says:
THEY CAN GO LICK YOUR 'PUSSY' CAT
OH WAIT
CHIBYE!
THEY CAN GO LICK YOUR CHIBYE!

i miss you. badly

2009-07-16T06:46:00.000-07:00

Close your eyes,

Clear your heart.

LET IT GO

is this it?

2009-07-16T04:15:00.001-07:00

a new friend, a new chapter.

Part2

2009-07-14T04:44:00.000-07:00

i dont know what to do.

why do i always have this feeling inside of me.

and i forget how to breath.

i keep blogging the same thing over and over again.

i want to feel happy , but why cant i?

why do i always get hurt over and over again?

why is this happening to me?

why cant i be a happy girl, in a happy world.

without problems keep coming?

im just plain ugly

so hate me.

i hope karma strikes back to all of you ( i dont want to mation names)

but a guy like you, can go fuck yourself once in awhile.

so, dont come crying to me if your pregnent.

ps: i miss yaan so badly i need him right now
where you go love?
:/

He Knocks Me Down, So I Got Back Up.

2009-07-14T01:43:00.001-07:00

do you feel like a man ? when you push her around ?

when u feel fucked up, and slowly you found your self lying on the floor?

soon you want to get back up, but you cant?

and you feel guilty cause whatever you did is a mistake.

& when you feel thats shes beside you.

always looking, and the feeling never fades.

FUCK YOU.

survey

2009-07-13T02:03:00.000-07:00

YANTOI'S SURVEY.

1. What's your room colour?
White

2. What's your actual height?
160

3. If you are told to get married quick, what will you do?
Whatever happens. let it happen

4. If your boyfriend or sister(s) would say " break up", what's your reaction?
"lol"

5. If your brother would be in jail, what will you do?
biarkan ah. padan muke dier. ( let it be, shame on him!)

6. If your boyfriend or girlfriend would end up in hospital & in coma, what will you do?
i laugh to his face! die faggot! , no im just kidding. i'll run to the hospital. and hope his doing okay.

7. If you saw someone stripless whats your first reaction?
laugh my ass of.

8. Last person you chat with?
aPian?

9. Whose the last person who texted you and what?
Goregirl- " eh i see you online later! im walking home from school!"

10. What's on your playlist now?
ComeHome-Eyes Set To Kill

11. The last thing you ever brought at a shop?
Ice Lemon Tea O.o

12. What's the most silly/cute thing your boyfriend or girlfriend last did?
Tickle me from the back :( and then he'll carry me.
strong sia (Y) , but please ah i dont want to think about it.

13. It's white and sticky. what is it?
marshmallow terbakar? what u think huh?sperm is it..noty eh question..tsktsk
(adie's answer) crack me up . lol.

14. A romantic dream. Would you like it to be happen to you?
VERY LORH.

15. Give 10 people that you wish to do this survey.

Goregirl

Elfac

Hanis

Alice

Sean

Nini

Syaza

Gabbie

Dharsh

Ajie
16. Right now, what you wish to be happening to you?
The Boy To Appear :( And FREEDOM.

17. If you caught boyfriend or girlfriend in red handed in having affair?
act like nothing happened. and leave him!

18. If your mum gave you a thousand dollars, what will you do?
Simpan untuk Future.

19. Right now, what are you thinking?
:(

20. What is a thing that you want to burn so much, right now?
Memories.& him

23. Do you wish someone to be by your side, right now?
I DO I DO IDO

24. Which country would you want to go?
Paris,Japan (Osaka!)

25. Would you ever wish to kiss someone else?
=.=

26. Your friend list, if you would lost one friend what will you do and who?
i dont know ah. isap uh siah.

27. If there's young baby on your doorstep, what will you do?
kick it. chey no lah! i will bring it up for adoption :)

28. If your girlfriend or boyfriend got you pregnant, what will you do?
private siah!

29. What's the last sweet thing your loved ones ever did to you?
a neckless from khalid ^^

30. What would you want to happen the next morning you woke up?
gets freedom from mum , and lots of money and and and dslr on my bed. and also fisheye

(y)

Donut Story

2009-07-11T08:11:00.000-07:00

- as you can see, hanis is jealous of me giving out donuts :P

well, its ur turn soon la love!

What Shows

2009-07-11T07:55:00.000-07:00

if i could ever think that love is..

.. is just another part of life.

but im confuse.

you're making me confuse.

everytime i fall in love.

in the end i get thrown to the floor.

like a glass just broken into peices.

i feel DEAD.

very dead. i feel that i have no emotions.

like, idk wether im happy or sad or even angry.

i have no one by myside.

no one is here, to be with me.

i still need you love, i miss you.

i feel so so so so guilty about that incident.

i blame myself. if that incident never happen.

nothing will change between me and you.

i miss the way you call me sugar.

i miss the way you say ' i love you.'

i want you back.

its been 4 months.

and it feels like forever.

god,save me.

Feel What I Feel

2009-07-10T18:51:00.000-07:00

for a second there, i tot i have something to blog about.

but i forget what i want to blog about.

so, bye.

..5mins later

okay, i guess i have something to blog now.

yesterday was a rough day.

went to school, usual thing. blablabla.

reached home.

wanted to meet raudhah, but mama ask to stay at home.

i was so effing bored. and lost, dident know what to do.

i quickly grab my skateboard and slam the door.

skate around my area. and, listen to my ipod while doing tricks.

i dont care if i fall, or whatever shit.

cause that suppose to happen.

i wanted to go raw with me today

but im too lazy. so i think i'll be sitting at home and rot.

while u guys have fun there. or maybe i'll just drop by.

i miss elfac and hanis. and also zee. :(

i want to meet you guys badly.

or maybe, i'll be going to somerset to meet reg.

& skate.

BUT IM SO CONFUSE NOW. idk what to do.

guess i should call gg for help.

lol k bye.

decided.

2009-07-10T00:46:00.000-07:00

i've decided to put back my tagboard once again.

so dont take advantage kay :)

and i miss someone badly.

i want to hear ur cute-irrtating voice again.

tua siah!

2009-07-10T00:27:00.000-07:00

Happy 20th Birthday Adie.

(his birthday falls on 9/7/09)

Dah tua dier. this means kene kasi duit untuk hari raya kay(y)

i cant put his picture.

stupid blog pic uploader something wrong.

have fun today okay :)

dapat donut when we meet.

*yay.